Sometimes I Just Don’t Know

An eternal source of subject matter for songwriters across the ages is the heartache and pain, confusion and resolve that comes from the fracturing of a relationship. On album number six, Sydney singer-songwriter Bryan Estepa tackles universal themes with his trademark melodicism, emotive lyrics and ear for classic arrangements.  

The two bookends of Estepa’s sound are power-pop and alt-country. Between them is a strong streak of indie rock, the sonic glue and attitude that completes his timeless sound. The influence of Tom Petty, You Am I, The Beatles, Wilco and The Jayhawks blend with Hall & Oates and Elliott Smith, resulting in introspective songs conveyed through exuberant and emotive guitar pop melodies.

Estepa co-produced the album with Josh Schuberthduring recording sessions at Endomusia Studios in the Blue Mountains and Love HZ Studios in Sydney, featuring Estepa’s band – Russell Crawford (drums/vox), Brian Crouch (keys), Dave Hatt (guitar), Dave Keys (bass). Having played with this band for seven years, this was the first time they’d all recorded a proper album together. You can hear it too. The synchronicity and spirit in their playing, serving the songs and elevating their impact and resonance.

“I feel so lucky to be playing alongside these unbelievably talented mates of mine and even though my name is up front, this is a BAND. Being in a band is the best thing anyone can do! It is important for me for this band leave a musical imprint on my music. They treat my songs with a lot of respect and bring it to life the way I could never do by myself.”

The album title, Sometimes I Just Don’t Know, encapsulates what Estepa wanted to address across the album’s ten songs.

“The title is a statement I wanted to make about the unpredictability of life and what it throws and brings to us. I think that’s the beauty and challenges to it as well. We don’t always have the answers and that’s not necessarily a bad thing. We gotta navigate through it in our own way and that’s when I believe the best comes out of us.”

The opening track and infectious single ‘I’m Not Ready For This’ has already caught the attention of radio programmers, including ABC Melbourne and 2RRR, Spotify playlist creators and music fans who helped it reach #13 on the iTunes Australia Singer-Songwriter chart. Music journalist Bernard Zuel described it as “very fine indeed… a dark-centred pop pleasure”.

Elsewhere on the album, ‘No Ordinary’ channels The Cars with glorious, soaring harmonies, ‘Granted’ is a solemn and soulful paean to the fading memories of the early bloom of new love and the ensuing drifting apart of two souls. ‘Another Kind Of Madness’ has an intro worthy of Jeff Tweedy before blossoming into a widescreen 60s guitar-led reverie. ‘Rattled & Rolled’ is wrapped up in rich chord changes and the colourful keys of Michael Carpenter who played on and produced the song.

“I saw a lot of autumnal colours when writing these tunes. My favourite seasons are the transitional ones, where you get the best of both worlds and kind of excited and nervous at what is up ahead.”

Born in Cubao, Quezon City in the Philippines, Estepa and his family moved to Sydney, Australia in 1987. It was there, at the age of 15, that he began to pursue the craft of songwriting before starting his adult musical journey fronting indie pop band Swivel in the late-90s pub scene. He recorded his inaugural CD with the band, which paved the way for his solo career. A year of travelling across the USA and performing at open mic nights inspired songs for his debut EP, Start Again in 2003 and since then Estepa has gone on to release five critically acclaimed solo albums (All The Bells And WhistlesSunday BestVesselsHeart Vs Mind and Every Little Thing).

Over his career, Estepa has performed shows in the USA, London, England, Spain, the Philippines, Sweden and Australia.


I'm Not Ready for This - Official Music Video

The Making of 'Sometimes I Just Don't Know'